It’s been 3-1/2 weeks since my dad was taken to the emergency room at Forsyth Medical Center. At first it was thought he had some sort of bug, he had gotten up at 2:00 AM throwing up and again around 10:00AM, but now he could barely walk.
A few hours and many tests later it was determined he had a bleed on his brain. He had a hemmoragic stroke and the pressure around the brain was high. He stayed in the ER for nearly a day as there were no rooms in the Neuro ICU. A week in Neuro ICU, then a week and a half or so on the Neuro floor before moving to Palliative Care.
And now, here we are at Hospice, going on day three. It’s 2:30AM and he has lived longer through this night than I expected. I’ve been mentally prepared that we were losing him for weeks now; or at least I thought I was, now I’m not so certain of any of my emotions.
But as I sit here listening to his breathing becoming more erratic with long periods of apnea followed by several ‘normal’ breaths; I have time to contemplate life and it’s brevity.
Around 5-1/2 weeks from conception a human heartbeat can be detected. It may beat a few weeks and stop due to a miscarriage or it may beat for more than a century without stopping. It baffles my mind that there are those that believe we are creatures of chance, formed from amino acids in some galactic explosion. I see the hands of a creator all over our lives and the world we live in. The balance is just too perfect to be a chance occurrence.
I’m not the first to ponder these things. The writer of Psalm 139 was thinking this when he wrote:
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my motherʼs womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, God! How vast is the sum of them!
Psalm 139:13-17 NIV
My dad’s heart has beat for 76 years now. Whether it will beat one more day I cannot know for certain. But even in uncertain times I know a certain God; his creator, my creator. In him I place my trust.
I rarely just copy and paste something into my blog, but occasionally I come across something that reflects how I feel about a topic too accurately to ignore it. I have to give a hat tip to @PantherAR15 on Twitter for posting this, I wish I knew who the original author was to give attribution. (more…)
As a kid I loved snow; days out of school, sledding and throwing snowballs would ensue. Nowadays, well not so much. Unfortunately in our part of North Carolina we don’t get just snow, we usually get ice with the bargain. This weekend on the other hand is snow, powdery, fluffy and 7 inches; a whole lot of it, at least for North Carolina. (more…)
I’m impatient, it’s no secret. Most of my life is being on a mission of some sort and I’m continually frustrated by hindrances to my progress. I attribute much of this to the way I work, I’m strictly commission paid. If I don’t produce I don’t get paid. I quickly became my own efficiency authority, and have little tolerance for idiocity. Driving is one of those areas however where I have learned to mostly temper my lust for speed and operate in ‘why can’t we get along?’ mode, it’s just the most efficient way to get things done. (more…)
So, I had the privilege to take part in a sporting clays event today to benefit Grace Baptist Bible College in Winston-Salem. Grace Baptist Bible College was formed in August of 2009 and the campus resides on the property of Marshall Baptist Church in Winston-Salem. (more…)